One of the
most difficult things to do is to stay wide-awake during the death
of your old ego attachments and the birthing of your own soul's
divine purpose
Ego attachments
are developed early in life as a protection mechanism. They help
us adapt to our surroundings so that we survive and get our needs
met. The ego is not in charge of our life's purpose, however. In
order to be truly happy we must sooner or later begin to rely on
something higher in ourselves - which leads to the death of our
ego attachments.
It is difficult
to stay awake during this death. Even if we sincerely believe we
have a sacred reason to be on the planet, and have a unique role
in God/Goddess' creation, doubt will surely raise its head when
the ground beneath us begins to shake. There is a natural tendency
to run for the shelter of what we know - even if it is not what
we really want. The unknown future can feel too threatening and
our fear can easily sabotage our hopes and dreams. Rather than embrace
the void we often opt for safety, or what we define as safety. The
irony is that what may seem safe actually may be destroying our
lives and hurting what we most love.
When we
make the shift from ego to soul we often encounter interference
from those closest to us. It is understandable that those we are
most closely connected to - partners in love, work and play, our
children and employers, etc. - are resistant to this shift. We have
created predictable patterns that help others know what to expect
in their connections with us. This may change considerably when
one begins to listen to the soul's longing. It is important not
to judge those who do not understand and equally as important not
to allow their judgments to interfere with our decisions. We must
remember that they still see us from their ego point of view and
are - in fact - mirroring our own ego's perception. They have not
had time to go through their own process of accepting the changes
that are affecting them on various levels. The discomfort will pass
in time and if the relationships are worth keeping and the loving
connection is real these relationships will not only survive but
also improve. It is important to trust love. All things that are
not love will fall away.
Even after
you make up your mind to let your "soul be your pilot"
as you let go of old ego attachments, the pull will still be strong
to revert back to the familiar rather than move forward to the new.
You will need support, soul friends, soul tools, and a faith and
trust in something bigger than your ego's point of view in order
to put down firm roots on new ground.
It saddens
me to see people in the middle of major life changes falling back
to sleep. While I know that on some level it is a part of the process
it still disturbs me, especially when someone's life and well-being
is threatened by a return to the old situation, addiction or pattern.
This disappointment has led me to work more diligently in discovering
better methods of healing and ways to remember the soul's true purpose.
The Shamanic
Breathwork Process still remains the most powerful soul tool
I know to genuinely kick-start the process of shifting from the
ego's agenda to the soul's perspective. This highly transformative
method of self-discovery can cut through months, or even years,
of talk therapy. The Shamanic Breathwork Process allows one
to wake up, or to have heightened awareness, through a natural breath-induced
altered state. As inner wisdom is accessed the answers to what have
felt like impossible questions can become easily accessible. This
is the easy part
staying connected to the wisdom takes much
more work. Through releasing the old patterns by using more soul
tools such as focused body work, chakra attuned music, mandala art
work and group process, the breath work experience begins to integrate
into one's life.
The witnessing
of our journey, both in the process group and in the weeks to come,
by fellow/sister journeyers is one of the most powerful influences
in keeping the process alive and well, one day at a time. It takes
time for the new seed to take root in our lives. Winds of doubt,
disappointment and the skepticism of others easily uproot the new
seedling. In time, as the soul's voice becomes stronger than the
ego's fear, a deepening will occur, which some have called serenity.
An unshakable faith that there is indeed something in the universe
- whatever name we call it - that loves us deeply and has a divine
plan for us. We begin to know deep down in our hearts and bodies
that our lives are not a mistake. This must surely mean that WE
ARE HERE ON PURPOSE!
The Bigger
Picture begins to be our daily reality, and the ego becomes the
servant of higher love and wisdom. MAY WE EACH BE GRACED BY THIS
LARGER REALITY IN OUR LIVES ON A DAILY BASIS!